It’s Finally Starting To Sink In: I’m Most Likely Leaving

As I brace for my finals and suddenly find myself with lots of free time, I’m realizing more and more that, in all likelyhood, this will be my last semester at UE. If I don’t pass Discrete Combinatorics, which is a possibility, I’m not sure if I’ll have to take another class here or if they’ll be able to find me an online course. I really hope it’s the latter.

I used to joke that “home” was anywhere I had all my posessions and a good Internet connection. I’ve been reasonably adaptable to different living conditions, sure enough, but experiences like those at LCB and UE have made me appreciate the saying, “home is where the heart is” all the more. Evansville has been my home, for the past four years, and leaving it will be bittersweet. Of course, there’s the home within UE I found, which would be TKE. So many nights spent at the house, observing everyone being crazy or joining in with them, watching movies (and making fun of them)… all the service events, just everything. I about had another anxiety attack on Monday when Ashley expressed her sadness that I’d be leaving.

Now I’ve come to the point where I have to give shout-outs to everyone significant to me in my college life. Please bare with me, and if I end up not tagging you in the version of this post that appears on Facebook, don’t take it personally.

First, I have to mention Zack. Without you, old friend, I never would’ve been introduced to the second family that is TKE. I know things have been rough for you these past couple years, but you’re tough and can get your life straightened out.

Morgan, AKA the second uber-troll… you and I are actually similar in a number of ways, and you’ve been a hell of a person to spend the last four years with even if you do come off as a dick at times. Beeker, you’re crazy and an idiot sometimes, but your heart’s in the right place and you have a lot of dedication to Teke. Just please, please focus on your studies more and make sure you go to class.

Jake, hang in there. It’s okay to come out of your shell a bit more, and you don’t need to avoid the world by locking yourself in your room all the time. I must also thank you for introducing me to MST3k , which has helped me keep my sanity relatively intact.

Justin, you damn crazy balista-toating Prussian. I’ll miss our discussions about German beer, cigars, mechanics of ancient siege weapons, and the inability of the establishment to keep up with the free market’s demands for more lasagna. Also, “don’t you cry no more!

Alex, you were one of the people I always felt like I could open up to, especially during those late-night cigar-smoking sessions on the porch. You’re also one of the few that keeps up with Shonan Jump regularly, and helps me clarify things if the various anime wikis confuse me. Congratulations on you and Haily, by the way. You’re a cute couple.

Jordan, you always impressed me with your quiet, down-to-earth personality and your intelligence. I trust you and Matlak to take up the mantal of “the computer people” when I’m gone. I wish I could’ve seen you before the end of the semester, but at least I got to see Ashley… who I also hadn’t realized how much I missed until she came back.

Wheels, you and I are similar in many ways, and that’s probably why I’ve been able to talk to you about so much (not to mention we both have dry whit and an interesting sense of humor). I hope you don’t end up being kept awake until 6 in the morning again listening to someone else’s problems, but it was nice of you all the same to put up with it. I wish you’d been around more, but I understand why that was impossible.

Of course, how could I forget to give a shout-out to my little? I hope you matured a bit in England, and regret that we didn’t get to spend as much time together as I would’ve liked. I hope you don’t feel I was remiss in my duties as your big. On the other hand, you introduced me to lots of interesting and strange music, and I got to learn a little more about Macs. Then, of course, there’s the other Kris, our newest initiate… I’ll be leaving pretty much after just meeting you. You’re a hard worker, though, and I feel confident leaving the fraternity in your hands and those of the “next generation.”

Now, I come to the women in my college life… and I’d be a fool not to start with Kayla. I said most of what I needed to say to you a few weeks ago, except for 2 things.

  1. Thanks to you, I now have a thing for whitty, charming, and curvacious music majors (there sure are a lot of them, aren’t there?).
  2. Please, please try not to end up with some jackass that breaks your heart (I know, easier said than done). While I’d love any excuse to come back to UE after this semester, having a “friendly chat” with an ex of yours isn’t high on my priority list.

Amber, I know you have a ridiculous number of things on your plate right now, especially considering your recent family tragedy. However, through it all you’ve been there for me and TKE, and in general you’re a wonderful friend to have. I wish your computer and I were on better terms with each other, but I’m pretty sure it just hates everyone at this point. Either that or it’s tired of college too. I’ll miss you and all those wonderful moments where my mind breaks for just long enough for my face to take on some weird expression.

Kylie, I saw way too little of you after freshman year. Fortunately, you introduced me to Yu-Gi-Oh: The Abridged Series, for which I can’t thank you enough. Unfortunately, I won’t be able to make it to your party, but hopefully I’ll see you at some point next week.

Jess Allen, you adorable soulless ginger, I’ll miss you and your quiet but crazy antics, even though half the time I don’t know you’re around because you’re so quiet. I wish nothing but the best for you and Mike.

Katie, I’m so sad I only got to know you this year. You’ve always been a sweetheart, even before you were elected as such. You never complained about helping me get anywhere, and you’ve always been a joy to be around. On top of all that, you’re the most huggable person I know (and that’s saying a lotyou were always there with a hug whenever I needed or wanted one.

Bethany, you’re a strange one, that is to say stranger than the normal “strangeness” of people I tend to hang out with. However, you do share my love for MST3k, which is awesome. Unfortunately, we got to know each other under rather odd circumstances, but that’s just how things go sometimes. RCB was a blast. And yes, I concede that Junior’s not “boring.”

Jessica Basham, I have to mention you because you were there for me through a lot of tough times, including my surgery last semester. After that, you… weren’t, but I’m making this a positive post and won’t go into that. Thank you for the good times, and it’s a shame things had to end the way they did.

While I’m thanking people who were there for me through tough times, I have to mention my IRC friends, Mo, Jerry, Sharalynn, and Igor. Sometimes it’s still hard to open up to them about things, but that mainly has to do with how blunt and honest they are. Having said that, their input is almost always welcome.

There are so many more people who’ve been here for me… Kate, my math tutor, Doni and Chris Streicher, Disco (love ya, Big!), Abby, Ashley Smith, Ashley Williamson, Duce, Schenk, Cameron, Wold, Audrey, Theo, everyone at Bosma (including Bill, Adam, Britney and Amelia)… I’m thankful to know each and every one of you.

Last, but certainly not least, I would like to thank my parents. Without them, I wouldn’t be here (literally), and they’ve done their best to keep me “on the right track.” Yes, Mom and Dad, I know I ignore you a lot, but I do listen to what you say, even if I don’t act on it. You’ve always been understanding about driving to see me, or taking me places, or helping me with financial matters… even calling me once a week so I don’t block your numbers from my phone. I can’t express my appreciation for you enough.

I think that just about covers it… this took me almost 3 days to write, mainly due to the distractions of occasional studying and other things. My first final went well, so now it’s time to make that big push towards getting a d or higher on my Discrete final. Thank you, UE, for being so good to me.